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it's barely one year and three months since i started my practice but i feel i should have a little break. my life is a routine - wake up, eat breakfast, take a bath, go to work, eat at work, continue working, go home, eat dinner, take a bath, check my email, go to sleep. that's practically every day from monday to saturday. but i do hope that would change in the near future for my boyfriend of 8 years and i are planning to get married. but now, all i could think of is going to the beach!

In a society wherein people expect you to be married by the time you’re in your midtwenties, it’s hard for women like me to be 31 and still single. I never imagined that I’m not yet married by this age. I always thought that I’ll be married by the time I’m 28, but that was 3 years ago and things didn’t exactly fall into the right places. By the time I was 28, I was just starting my residency and I haven’t made enough money to settle down. Money was always the problem and still is.

But on the positive side, I’m happy that I’m still single and enjoying my time with my family and friends plus the fact that I have such a wonderful boyfriend. I get to travel, I get to be on my own to do stuff and free from the anxiety of raising my own family, as I’m not yet fully established with my practice.

Am I really lucky to be 31 and single? I feel I am. I’m living my life fully and independently. I always have time for myself and can relax anytime I want without thinking of any responsibilities other than myself. I love my life now but of course I do want to settle down in the near future, perhaps this year! I don't feel like time is ticking out.

i took doxycycline for the first time last friday night for my "single" acne. i took it without drinking water then i went to bed. saturday morning, i felt something was stucked on my throat but i could still swallow. sunday morning, i had chest pains but it comes and goes. i was worried but i didn't do anything about it. monday morning was the worst day of my life, i was feverish and i couldn't swallow and the chest pains were far more painful. i had an endoscopy that day and it was normal. i just took an antiulcer medication thinking it was gastroesophageal reflux. tuesday am (this morning), i woke up still with severe chest pain and i couldn't swallow solid foods. i searched the internet and found doxycycline-induced esophagitis. i'm a dermatology resident and i have not heard about that. luckily for my patients, no one had esophagitis due to doxycycline. now, i'm still in pain and have learned my lesson well.

it's another saturday night and i'm at home trying to figure out what to do. my boyfriend is working right now and i have no choice but to stay at home. i'm figuring out if i wanna watch the o.c. or one tree hill! well, i'm in my early adulthood (",) and i'm still dealing with the problems of seth and summer, ryan and marissa or lucas, brooke and peyton, nathan and haley! i guess i'm stucked in a teenager's body! people always say that when we're young we always want to grow up fast but when we're old we want to be young again! talk about irony. i do remember when i was in highschool i loved watching beverly hills 90210 and all of a sudden i was watching melrose place at the age of 15! it was a show for young adults about lying, cheating, stealing, seduction, backstabbing, immorality and betrayal. that was a time when we didn't even have cable tv. nowawdays, i wonder what kids watch. anyway, i'll settle for the o.c., i really like their glamorous life and i'm crazy in love with the cohen's house.